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[vicarz]

I just skipped home from the gym! Well the orthoguy was awesome, he was black and I mean US black not broken english black. Hate to sound culture-phobic, but I've had many doctors that were foreign that didn't inspire confidence from my HMO McKaiser. This guy seemed to know exactly what I was talking about and had a plan right away - answered all my questions, yay! So my good news is I can work out all I want and I won't do any more damage. The bad news is that I have somehow damaged a nerve at the bottom of the back of the neck which controls the boobie (that's a medical term). So the boobie itself is fine, it's just not getting the right signals. He says after 2 months if it't not better to return and they do nerve tests and a catscan. He also said if we do a cat scan they can also scan the sternum to see if I have torn something in there - cartlidge damage which he says is tough to deal with there as it's right over the heart. Eh - at least I have a direction to go in.

So I went to the gym and SUCKED. You have no idea how lame I felt only being able to do 6 reps with 50lbs on the bar, 2 quarters, my warm up morning weight!? I wound up finishing with bar plus 30 lbs. Most of my other weights were ok but...bleah!

Still, when I left I just felt so alive! I miss these fucking endorphins! I may not but lifting much but my god...the mirror is still good to me. Weak sure, but I'm pretty!