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Minor freakout - work
Dec. 5th, 2016 08:14 amI'm not good at what I do. I'm good in a way, but I have worked in this field for ten years. My formerly private law firm coworkers note crazy shit like only having 3 hours to draft MSJs, while I can spend anywhere from 8 to 40 hours or more on mine. I'm worried that I'm way slower than regular attorneys, and only "good" because I have so much time as a staff person to do the job. What if OGC is more like a private firm?
If I suck, then I'm super lucky I got this 10 year ease-in job where I got to pick up competencies slowly over time. It's not as good as if I was formally trained, but better than failing or getting fired. Still, there is a serious chance I'll have to work a serious transition. It may really suck.
Good maybes: OGC does seem to have some unfired incompetent folks. I also think they may be unionized, which sounds insane but wonderful if true. I'm all about protections.
Bad maybes: same racist anti-everything-but-af-amer issues may be in there as other known civil rights programs. Also in this there may be that lofty law school emphasis, making them not want people like me. They could keep people like me out by posting the jobs as GS-9s or 11s, forcing me either to take a huge demotion or simply not be able to work there. If they posted a 14 or 15 and didn't hire me I'd likely have a case, but if they post a 9 or 11 to keep us out? It would be hard to file.
What if I don't get in - what if I get in and it sucks? These are my basic lines of thought.
If I suck, then I'm super lucky I got this 10 year ease-in job where I got to pick up competencies slowly over time. It's not as good as if I was formally trained, but better than failing or getting fired. Still, there is a serious chance I'll have to work a serious transition. It may really suck.
Good maybes: OGC does seem to have some unfired incompetent folks. I also think they may be unionized, which sounds insane but wonderful if true. I'm all about protections.
Bad maybes: same racist anti-everything-but-af-amer issues may be in there as other known civil rights programs. Also in this there may be that lofty law school emphasis, making them not want people like me. They could keep people like me out by posting the jobs as GS-9s or 11s, forcing me either to take a huge demotion or simply not be able to work there. If they posted a 14 or 15 and didn't hire me I'd likely have a case, but if they post a 9 or 11 to keep us out? It would be hard to file.
What if I don't get in - what if I get in and it sucks? These are my basic lines of thought.
