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I dunno. Tonight was a bit of a flashback. I wish I could blame alcohol but sadly this was just me. I didn't know that many people but a few people now looked like a few people then...and I'm comfortable enough to interact today but ultimately I don't want to.

I noted earlier I don't have any issues I'm working through. Then in the dark, with the music playing, and more than a few people from my past or reminding of people from my past, I ran through my recent past and present in my mind.

And here I am, with all my newfound confidence, happily at home alone. I kinda wanna get drunk just for the feeling. Empty, sourceless, but ... I still want it.

Never mind the rest of it.