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Here comes my crazies.
I hurt myself in the gym competing with a friend who has passed me on all my max lifts. Trying to keep up with my challenge, I exhausted myself one week and even though I stopped when it seemed to hurt, I injured my back fairly annoyingly last week to the degree I've had to stop working out 100%.
I did not get better in 2 days, then 4, I've spent days unable to stand up without inching my way at the top, and now carrying laundry or my backpack reminds me my back is tight on one side. I have an appt with the doc on Friday.
Last night I had nothing to do, and did nothing but read, internet a bit, and play video games. With that, I'm just noticing a wave of depression, feeling useless. I'm lucky - I have remembered that when I don't work out I don't get the daily rush of endorphins and feelings of validation I get from physical exertion.
But recognizing the ride or not, my feelings are all turning teenage kate bush on me.
I hurt myself in the gym competing with a friend who has passed me on all my max lifts. Trying to keep up with my challenge, I exhausted myself one week and even though I stopped when it seemed to hurt, I injured my back fairly annoyingly last week to the degree I've had to stop working out 100%.
I did not get better in 2 days, then 4, I've spent days unable to stand up without inching my way at the top, and now carrying laundry or my backpack reminds me my back is tight on one side. I have an appt with the doc on Friday.
Last night I had nothing to do, and did nothing but read, internet a bit, and play video games. With that, I'm just noticing a wave of depression, feeling useless. I'm lucky - I have remembered that when I don't work out I don't get the daily rush of endorphins and feelings of validation I get from physical exertion.
But recognizing the ride or not, my feelings are all turning teenage kate bush on me.
