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My control for whether I'm just being a whiny bitch is whether my older coworker grimaces at a report of the exchange. Yes, the emails from this weekend got a grimace; he got so many emails he charged work time in violation of the berating instructions. We get more feedback on our hours worked and posted work status than anything we do - though style input on all our written work is never finished. I mean it's really never finished - he doesn't read a final version but seems to give up rearranging our work. Granted he means it, half the time he spent the weekend rearranging our paragraphs himself.

But work is now stupidly slow. Is it worth putting up with degrading treatment to have an easy job otherwise? I think I'm in the miracle job search stage, where it has to be perfect in every way. I fear I need to kick my own ass - I need to make life changes over the things that are making me unhappy just a little every day; my personal water drip torture which never seems enough to walk.

With my home and finances in flux it's a tough time to make more changes in my life - or the perfect time. Why not start from scratch everywhere? Is it harder because one part of my life is all mixed up or easier to wipe the whole slate? It's expensive; an expensive metaphor.

What is important? What is worth working through and what should be left?
I'm not good at this.
But I'm not happy.

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News is mixed - but more good than bad. Vanessa did test dig #1, and found the bricks spread out under the ground to land in a concrete footer. I think we had 2-3 ' easy. However, hole #2 revealed brick going down into concrete maybe only 1-2' down. Pictures pending with measurements.

The other good contractor bailed - he just got 3 bids accepted so he's not even going to bid.

Today a new contractor showed up, and voiced not only comfort with the type of work, but familiarity and offers to visit some of their sites including a cap hill basement digout (among other work). Awkwardly, she and he were both my height and...fucking cute. I'm like a cute contractor magnet.
Ok they likely send out attractive people for bids - makes sense
They seem qualified and interested in the work - but we'll see what happens with a bid. If I don't know any better, I've talked this thing so many times I sound like I know what I'm talking about (well as long as I have Scott as a safety net).

I save tens of thousands if I don't need to do underpinning - but the idea that one wall or part of the work might require underpinning while the other might not never occurred.

More importantly, Vanessa had a 20 lb sledgehammer and tips about how to do the mallet game at renfest!