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Mar. 18th, 2012 06:22 pmGym fail - butt hurts still, and I missed my lift (got 1/3). I think it's time for a major reset - sucks because it's summer (wait, this matters why?) but I bumped a lot of weights to cheat myself into my pb record books...and now I'm stuck. Ok, lesson re-re-learned.
Sometimes I think the gym and video games are bad for me. I am doing something social - competing with men even - but alone. I work out alone. I talk to people, talk online about my working out, but ultimately I'm getting social feelings from things I do
alone.
I play my video game in a world populated with 12 year olds, in a guild of adults I don't really like to talk to because while I want to play not-alone, having to schedule, help, coordinate, and say a bunch of trivial hellos and shit feels like a burden.
I don't feel alone. But I am.
Less than 12 hours until coffee.
Sometimes I think the gym and video games are bad for me. I am doing something social - competing with men even - but alone. I work out alone. I talk to people, talk online about my working out, but ultimately I'm getting social feelings from things I do
alone.
I play my video game in a world populated with 12 year olds, in a guild of adults I don't really like to talk to because while I want to play not-alone, having to schedule, help, coordinate, and say a bunch of trivial hellos and shit feels like a burden.
I don't feel alone. But I am.
Less than 12 hours until coffee.
