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Jun. 16th, 2010 05:16 amNO idea why I woke up at 3:30 but I did. Instead of my usual waking up and not feeling tired - I'm tired but can't sleep. No issue though - I work at home today so when I work and sleep is moot.
A few months ago I had tubbed up to 143 or more. It's not a large weight I realize, but for me it's just the point where my abs are covered by a little layer of flub - not horrible, not unsightly, not an embarrassment, but also not a washboard. Since I couldn't lift weights with this stupid elbow thing, I decided it was safe to diet and cardio.
So today I weighed in, naked in the AM for super low readings, at 135. I realize the scale isn't accurate, but it does help identify trends and set some basic benchmarks.
My coworker mocked me yesterday, for as she happily calls herself too fat (and doesn't mind - while she on again off again works out or diets, she's got no image issues and talks about fitness like I do drinking) noted I was the only one in the office "who didn't need to diet at all." I just can't get the point accepted that BECAUSE I care about the weight, and BECAUSE I specifically change what and how much I eat while exercising, that the RESULT is the fact I "don't need to diet." I explain, over and over, that if I didn't care one whit about my fat % that, at my salary level with associated access to restaurant food-booze-sweeties, I'd weigh over 300 lbs easily eating all the food I enjoy (plus stress eating) in the quantities and frequency I would do if there were no consequence. No matter how many times it gets said, I look this way because I just do. All the work I put in is silly because I'm not fat. :/
Is cause and effect such a difficult concept to grasp?
You know what else? Rich people don't need to save money! They're rich!
People with kids don't need to fuck - they have kids! They just pop out!
Educated people don't need to go to school! They're full of facts! That whole working hard for a long period of time acquiring and demonstrating domain specific knowledge? A sham!
Psychos don't need guns! People just drop dead wherever they go!
I'm no longer on a diet. I'm not going to gorge myself on a regular basis or blow it all - but I might make some chocolate chip cookies.
Naked.
A few months ago I had tubbed up to 143 or more. It's not a large weight I realize, but for me it's just the point where my abs are covered by a little layer of flub - not horrible, not unsightly, not an embarrassment, but also not a washboard. Since I couldn't lift weights with this stupid elbow thing, I decided it was safe to diet and cardio.
So today I weighed in, naked in the AM for super low readings, at 135. I realize the scale isn't accurate, but it does help identify trends and set some basic benchmarks.
My coworker mocked me yesterday, for as she happily calls herself too fat (and doesn't mind - while she on again off again works out or diets, she's got no image issues and talks about fitness like I do drinking) noted I was the only one in the office "who didn't need to diet at all." I just can't get the point accepted that BECAUSE I care about the weight, and BECAUSE I specifically change what and how much I eat while exercising, that the RESULT is the fact I "don't need to diet." I explain, over and over, that if I didn't care one whit about my fat % that, at my salary level with associated access to restaurant food-booze-sweeties, I'd weigh over 300 lbs easily eating all the food I enjoy (plus stress eating) in the quantities and frequency I would do if there were no consequence. No matter how many times it gets said, I look this way because I just do. All the work I put in is silly because I'm not fat. :/
Is cause and effect such a difficult concept to grasp?
You know what else? Rich people don't need to save money! They're rich!
People with kids don't need to fuck - they have kids! They just pop out!
Educated people don't need to go to school! They're full of facts! That whole working hard for a long period of time acquiring and demonstrating domain specific knowledge? A sham!
Psychos don't need guns! People just drop dead wherever they go!
I'm no longer on a diet. I'm not going to gorge myself on a regular basis or blow it all - but I might make some chocolate chip cookies.
Naked.
