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Apr. 8th, 2010 01:05 pmI think I do my well job merely because of raging insecurities. I'm not terribly insecure, but I always am checking and rechecking everything I can do to move my cases and argue each of them to our favor on every possible angle. Confidence could only lead to mistakes.
Back in the gym yesterday, facing some setbacks but moving forward. I don't know why but I've backtracked with my squats. My bench is weak again. However, I was able to squish out 5 deadlifts at 315. I finished my set, put my weights away, when a big muscular guy (with a leg brace on) said "That was a good lift. How much do you weigh?" and shook my hand. I had no idea anyone was watching, but neato. I likes me some affirmation. I've received comments twice on deadlifts, though last time was when I did 1 rep at 365. I'd like to squat 405 but I'm not sure that'll happen, ever. I have dropped from my 275 - no idea why, so even 315 is a long way away. I tried to eat more but all I got was fat.
Today my muscles are sore and I love it, feeling strong while I know I'm weak. I have new soreness as the "keep it simple" program is being dropped for no longer yielding strength gains, and I miss running and a flat stomach. Yesterday I did those kabata crunches, today I'll go running. To remind you, this icon exaggerates how I looked when the picture was taken.
I see the old murky is open again though it looks douchey. I'll visit later, but I fear a landslide of brown flip flops rather than eclectic weirdos.
Leaving my windows open is rewarding me with a layer of pollen on everything I own, but it's worth it.
I'm kind of happy and probably very dull right about now.
Back in the gym yesterday, facing some setbacks but moving forward. I don't know why but I've backtracked with my squats. My bench is weak again. However, I was able to squish out 5 deadlifts at 315. I finished my set, put my weights away, when a big muscular guy (with a leg brace on) said "That was a good lift. How much do you weigh?" and shook my hand. I had no idea anyone was watching, but neato. I likes me some affirmation. I've received comments twice on deadlifts, though last time was when I did 1 rep at 365. I'd like to squat 405 but I'm not sure that'll happen, ever. I have dropped from my 275 - no idea why, so even 315 is a long way away. I tried to eat more but all I got was fat.
Today my muscles are sore and I love it, feeling strong while I know I'm weak. I have new soreness as the "keep it simple" program is being dropped for no longer yielding strength gains, and I miss running and a flat stomach. Yesterday I did those kabata crunches, today I'll go running. To remind you, this icon exaggerates how I looked when the picture was taken.
I see the old murky is open again though it looks douchey. I'll visit later, but I fear a landslide of brown flip flops rather than eclectic weirdos.
Leaving my windows open is rewarding me with a layer of pollen on everything I own, but it's worth it.
I'm kind of happy and probably very dull right about now.
