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Oct. 23rd, 2008 07:51 amListening to Pleasure and the Beast on the way to work this AM - do you remember making tapes of the albums you had so you could be with somebody longer without either the music ending or having to stop to flip the album? Remember putting those extra songs on the end? Remember when cassette tapes got auto-reverse so the music never stopped? CD changes, then ipods, wiped that all out - I still don't understand being happy that a good song "came on" your ipod.
Dr. Sex? I noticed a lot of my 80s music was focused on the power of sex, sex by itself was this hugely alluring thing, and just having it in defiance of convention was victory in and of itself (going by the lyrics here). I guess this was before there was such a wide consciousness of the consequences, when the worst that could happen to you was herpes. Why a hard to get fatal disease changed that view, or what actually changed that view, I don't know. I suppose having hpv and hoips could be a slut advantage of sorts - you just have to announce what you have (not all of them do, btw) and then there is no fear of further consequence or liability for your acts. All you need to do is avoid the easily avoidable HIV and you can whore to your content. There is a lot of girl music which still, oddly, mixes giving sex up as a form of empowerment. Enticing with what you give up for free, the road to success. I guess when you're 16 it's pretty much all you have to offer up.
Back to thinking of sticking it out of work purely out of insecurity - what if I'm not good enough to be anywhere else? I am still in the earlier learning stages of litigation, by my own view. However, lots of movement has me scanning jobs and my resume is now updated.
Stupid way-too-personal notes: when I went to Chile I also ditched caffeine. Now I'm down from 4-5 or more cups of iced tea and coke to 1-2 cups daily, switched my murky intake (low) to caffeine free or 1/2. Haven't noticed much of a difference (not sure I was during drinking then being sick) except oddly my face cleared up - no zits. I was wondering why I had them at my age, I guess it was coke? I never really did feel better after having drugs - just enjoyed the taking part I guess. So I can't blame iced tea, so while I wouldn't ditched diet coke based on brain damage - for acne it goes bye-bye except as a mixer - and I'm cutting down on mixers. Priorities.
Worked out for the 2nd time yesterday, with my weights way down in anything that used to hurt my elbow. I have no residual bad effects in my elbow today. I'm going to slowly progress back up - not based on effort, but based on whether my elbow reacts negatively. I'm also taking glucosamine and ibuproferin. With any luck, in 6 months or less I'll be back to square one. While I was doing lat pulls with a whopping 45-65 lbs yesterday (down from 135, nothing to scream about but not shameful like this) a not-so-big guy beside me was squatting 3 plates (6 total) to the floor.
Dr. Sex? I noticed a lot of my 80s music was focused on the power of sex, sex by itself was this hugely alluring thing, and just having it in defiance of convention was victory in and of itself (going by the lyrics here). I guess this was before there was such a wide consciousness of the consequences, when the worst that could happen to you was herpes. Why a hard to get fatal disease changed that view, or what actually changed that view, I don't know. I suppose having hpv and hoips could be a slut advantage of sorts - you just have to announce what you have (not all of them do, btw) and then there is no fear of further consequence or liability for your acts. All you need to do is avoid the easily avoidable HIV and you can whore to your content. There is a lot of girl music which still, oddly, mixes giving sex up as a form of empowerment. Enticing with what you give up for free, the road to success. I guess when you're 16 it's pretty much all you have to offer up.
Back to thinking of sticking it out of work purely out of insecurity - what if I'm not good enough to be anywhere else? I am still in the earlier learning stages of litigation, by my own view. However, lots of movement has me scanning jobs and my resume is now updated.
Stupid way-too-personal notes: when I went to Chile I also ditched caffeine. Now I'm down from 4-5 or more cups of iced tea and coke to 1-2 cups daily, switched my murky intake (low) to caffeine free or 1/2. Haven't noticed much of a difference (not sure I was during drinking then being sick) except oddly my face cleared up - no zits. I was wondering why I had them at my age, I guess it was coke? I never really did feel better after having drugs - just enjoyed the taking part I guess. So I can't blame iced tea, so while I wouldn't ditched diet coke based on brain damage - for acne it goes bye-bye except as a mixer - and I'm cutting down on mixers. Priorities.
Worked out for the 2nd time yesterday, with my weights way down in anything that used to hurt my elbow. I have no residual bad effects in my elbow today. I'm going to slowly progress back up - not based on effort, but based on whether my elbow reacts negatively. I'm also taking glucosamine and ibuproferin. With any luck, in 6 months or less I'll be back to square one. While I was doing lat pulls with a whopping 45-65 lbs yesterday (down from 135, nothing to scream about but not shameful like this) a not-so-big guy beside me was squatting 3 plates (6 total) to the floor.
