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Oct. 20th, 2008 12:03 pmIn other orgs: http://abcnews.go.com/Blotter/Nightline/story?id=5996279
I told my boss today that I was starting to poke around other Agencies, and he was very quick to say he couldn't blame me - so quick I wonder if he's browsing as well. I'm scared to leave though - I know this devil, I'm not that fantastic at this job, and I do have some serious benefits right now (such as freedom to travel, flexible work location (2 days a week or more at home), flexible hours - it's not a bad job! It's just I don't know if I can risk having these bullies come after me again. On the other hand, a friend notes DHS at 2 blocks from a nearby metro - that alone would save me $200 monthly which right now I could really use.
I'm still tired - 10 hours a night or more of sleep, no partying over the weekend, and I'm still tired. No focus in the office. Every tiny task feels huge, and there is no logical reason why. I think I need another week off to pull my shit together (and I have no such time - I may just work off the clock to make up the difference).
It was a really good weekend full of food and friends. Only the gym (or my performance in it) let me down. Still - lifted yesterday and while my weights are fuxored, I am no worse for wear today. It just feels dumb to have lat pulls drop from 135 to 45, biceps from 80 to 30 or 20.
I told my boss today that I was starting to poke around other Agencies, and he was very quick to say he couldn't blame me - so quick I wonder if he's browsing as well. I'm scared to leave though - I know this devil, I'm not that fantastic at this job, and I do have some serious benefits right now (such as freedom to travel, flexible work location (2 days a week or more at home), flexible hours - it's not a bad job! It's just I don't know if I can risk having these bullies come after me again. On the other hand, a friend notes DHS at 2 blocks from a nearby metro - that alone would save me $200 monthly which right now I could really use.
I'm still tired - 10 hours a night or more of sleep, no partying over the weekend, and I'm still tired. No focus in the office. Every tiny task feels huge, and there is no logical reason why. I think I need another week off to pull my shit together (and I have no such time - I may just work off the clock to make up the difference).
It was a really good weekend full of food and friends. Only the gym (or my performance in it) let me down. Still - lifted yesterday and while my weights are fuxored, I am no worse for wear today. It just feels dumb to have lat pulls drop from 135 to 45, biceps from 80 to 30 or 20.
