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4 drinks into it I think there is something I am trying to learn through circumventing well placed defenses. With a few drinks I don't silence the voices, but I do slow them down and bend them to feel things besides anger or rage. It's not bad that I've gone from thinking I knew something to asking questions, but asking questions too often is from the position of someone who has an agenda in mind - questions seek answers, typically from a set of expectations. I'm trying to learn to listen.