I heard a man in Texas use "damniting" as a verb

Damnit. Just recovered enough to try deadlifts again, and despite all my concentration I fucked up my back again. Damnit damnit damnit. Drove the heels in the floor, pushed from the hip, lowered the butt to the floor, kept the bar right on my shins, tried not to jerk, head up eyes front, back straight...still. At least I had the sense to stop when I felt it, waited a second, and not to go on. On the upside, I did leg press 540 10 times. I'm not badly hurt, but I'm really going to have to back up and go slow on the deadlifts. So pissed. Other weights are plateauing as well.

Talked to Jen in Murky today - that was weird. Also sat there for a good 4 hours working on this week's arbitration hearings. Work has gone from being the giant good thing in my life to the giant ball of mental suck - I don't mind the work, but the politics are out of control.

I think I'm the middle-east I hate. I get frustrated with conflict and just want to beat the shit out of everyone, if I can't beat them then shoot, if I can't do that then just blow everyone the fuck up. Now, I know better and I see the problems with that "strategy," but it's still how I feel. Yeah, I have a negative side. If you don't like it, I have other qualities, but I'm damn well worth putting up with my anger, rants, and attitude. Hell anyone with half a brain will appreciate the humor with which the vitriol is delivered.

I tried to iron today. I failed.

I bought those bizarre doc martens. I like them because they're so comfy, but honestly it makes me look like I got mugged by the amish and forced to wear their hand-me-downs. Have you noticed all fashion shoes are ugly? Crocs, docs, uggs, flip-flops, and my amish flat-tipped rejected homeless footwear. Perhaps it's all based on "With a shoe this ugly, my feet will look less ugly by comparison."