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Every so often I stand back and ask why the gay is so important at this point in my life. Neglected to mention that for all my butch workout routine yesterday, I did the whole thing in my stick-girl switchblade symphony t-shirt. It gets looks, that contrast of butch and girly.

I'm so used to guys doing that eye-fuck-seduce-cruise thing that when I see a guy looking my way I automatically look away disinterested. However, a couple days ago when I auto-disengaged, I noticed as I walked by the dude was smoking hot. Huh. Not sure where I am with all that anymore - never really did date a lot of guys, but I still consider myself bi. Am I? Does it matter? Am I less bi now, or am I just not whoring about? Who cares, why not just do what feels natural at the time and not sweat the labels? House music all night long?

Worked with vista for the first time last night - my god how incredibly counter-intuitive and frustrating. I just wanted to open some sort of directory tree / folders view so I could move files back and forth from the old computer to the new - and it doesn't really have that option anymore. I mean I couldn't find anything like it, as now they have a series of search and view screens that are designed to make everything sorted by type of file...and it wouldn't load more than one piece of old software because of "compatibility issues." I thought the whole point was that new OSs could run old stuff...AND new stuff. It seems the MS philosophy is to shut down old stuff so you have to spend $ on new? I will try vista on my new cpu, but may revert to xp media if vista continues to suck for me.

Hey no alchemy tonight - not just changing the name this week. I've barely gone to that night since spellbound opened up. I really like the space, but I don't always like the music and the crowd was nonexistent.

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Odd - I wanna get drunk. No reason, don't really want to do anything, not really interested in leaving the house, but I have a major crush on the idea of being drunk. I could walk to several bars right here, and boy howdy do I have liquor. But why?