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I don't have anything to write or share, but here's what I'm doing and where I'm at.

I finished bar review course #1. Since then I've been reviewing my notes and continuing their post-class schedule. They recommend 12 hours of study a day, and I'm about at that starting in the AM and wrapping up after dark 7 days. I took a mild break, hiked, did errands. Instead of the multiple-choice they provide, I'm doing the PMBR ones and scoring so-so. PMBR are some tricky fine distinction bastards. Often I review the answers and disagree with what they give, even when I agree with their rule of law. I'm scoring 60-70% on their stuff, not bad. My essays are getting stronger, my performance tests are going well...I'm probably going to pass the bar. However, I'm not about to stop studying now. I've got too much invested to leave anything to chance, and after you give up 4 weeks of your life, or 6 weeks, what's another 2?

My dad is going to lump his brain cancer treatment into what was already scheduled for the stuff around his (heart) artery. He's decided it's time to write a will - I agree. That's one of those things I need to do myself when I finish the bar thingy. He's doing well or front'n, either way he's ok.

I am staying below 135lbs. I look good this way, intend to stay here. I've weighed 140ish for some time now, wasn't happy or unhappy, but 146 didn't look good. 135 feels and looks good. My physical abilities, notably stamina, are on the rise.

But that's all I got. I'm just studying all the time and poor company. I'm not miserable - this is normal to me for now, and now that I think I'm passing I don't mind the work as much. I am scared to go out or have too much fun because it might distract me from the work I have to get done. Also worried there will pain, death, or drama prior to or during the bar. I might disconnect the phone.