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Holy gods I'm tired. I am also ready for change.

Down 10lbs now, thinking some of that is due to always being behind in my study plans. I've stopped being productive - my head-sponge doesn't seem to be taking any more stuff. I've noticed the lesson plan has little time studying, just lots of drills. My drill scores suck horribly - got a whopping 5/17 the other day on sales/contracts - an area I allegedly know. Missing major issues on essay drills and hardly in the required timelines. I'm burnt out, but need to study. Not sure how to balance my needs.

Down 10lbs overall, give or take. I think being this busy all the time makes it easy not to eat. I think I look good except for my face. Did I drop the fat or am I wasting away?

This week I'm considering that I might actually fail the bar. If I took it today, I'm not sure I'd pass. I need more time to study, but my 6am-11pm shifts are not even getting the lesson plan done - how am I supposed to squeeze in more time to study and another 2 hours daily of PMBR? Even when I have the hours, I'm unable to focus and not absorbing any more.

I'm also grumpy. Go fig.