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I hate my job. I used to love this job, but the new atmosphere is just killing me. I feel so stupid for just realizing that every instruction I've received for 2-4 weeks now has literally been giving more work with less time to do it. Every modification adds another layer of idiocy. Oh, and the bitch-boy who was slower than all of us (but friends with the boss) has now been assigned to other duties which of course cannot be compared to ours. Only white people have to do clerical work - the black people (friends of boss) are not given any of that mess. Only, bitch-boy has to make her coffee.

I thought I nailed the shit out of the interview in MSHA - hell they applauded twice in a chorus to some of my answers. Still, it's 3 weeks and no callback so I didn't get it (no seriously, didn't get the job or even the 2nd interview). I've been applying to about a job a week and received little feedback other than declinations.

I'm at the point I'm thinking of looking at law in the private sector. I mean if I'm going to hate my job and be verbally chastised, perhaps I should get paid real 6 figures for it? I know it's worse out there, but how much worse? Ugh - my worst case scenario here is getting bitched at, yelled at, and receiving flat performance ratings (for the last 2 years I got the highest "outstanding," but paltry bonuses).

I'd laugh this place off as pathetic, but I don't seem to be able to move on. Being unable to solicit another job makes me question my worth and judgment.

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Ask and you shall receive?

I was just called into a previously unannounced meeting and TOLD, not asked, that I will be reassigned to the Hearings and Appeals Branch. That makes me a litigator - representing the Agency in 3rd party appeals to the MSPB, EEOC, and arbitrators. That's a position I once applied for before, though at the GS-14 level on a temporary basis. This was a rush decision upon the formal announcement that we are not being allowed to fill any of our existing vacancies, leadership, staff, clerical, or otherwise - including no details or temporary promotions. For me, it's an opportunity.

There are significant drawbacks. It's going to be facing a learning curve. Mistakes are far more consequential when the judges are external and deadlines make or break cases. It's in Beltsville fucking MD, forcing me to commute by car every day (though the travel time is about the same). It's in a lame building, virtually no windows in our section. Worst of all, it may involve overnight travel - a serious impact while I go to law school.

There are benes. I don't have to deal with this potential race issue or being yelled at/to any more. I won't be an overpaid clerical. The number of cases I deal with will be drastically reduced. Most importantly, on the official record I will have been a litigator for the hearings and appeals branch (HAB). That's a rather unusual qual for a pre-grad law student. Nifty.

I got a new job w/o applying.