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Jun. 22nd, 2005 05:56 amThe day before yesterday I was called a fag on the street from 2 white guys in a passing silver scion. I fought back the urge to chase them down in traffic based either on maturity, the person I was with, or some combination of both. I fought the urge again when I saw them stuck at the light.
Yesterday I applied for my first outside-the-agency job. Yesterday the moon was full and dark orange - thank you my dark lord and master. Yesterday love was such an easy game to play. Yesterday I re-discovered how hard it is to push yourself past exhaustion when you work out alone (running - I wasn't in pain and yet it was a struggle to just stay that-tired that long).
Today I woke at 4am to the sound a bird concerto. I love waking up to the sound of birds (maybe not at 4 though). Today I picked up my email to find this job announced: http://jobsearch.usajobs.opm.gov/getjob.asp?JobID=31270940&WT.mc_n=MKT000125
I believe this is the position I was discussing. I've downloaded KSA and resume to my flash-stick, and pulled hard copies of my outstanding performance appraisal, most recent SF50, the 50 from my GS-14 ethics detail, and a couple of awards and thank you letters.
I've been debating whether to take an easy or difficult semester of classes in the fall. Thinking I might be taking on a new job, with career skills that make me extremely marketable in the long-run as an HR Director, I may go with a light load (including the course in Labor Law they just offered).
I'm not sure why I'm writing this. Perhaps I'm pretending I'm talking to someone because it helps me process. Something about saying it out loud makes it more real. Perhaps it's time I learned to rely more on an internal dialog without the need to "voice" it at all.
Yesterday I applied for my first outside-the-agency job. Yesterday the moon was full and dark orange - thank you my dark lord and master. Yesterday love was such an easy game to play. Yesterday I re-discovered how hard it is to push yourself past exhaustion when you work out alone (running - I wasn't in pain and yet it was a struggle to just stay that-tired that long).
Today I woke at 4am to the sound a bird concerto. I love waking up to the sound of birds (maybe not at 4 though). Today I picked up my email to find this job announced: http://jobsearch.usajobs.opm.gov/getjob.asp?JobID=31270940&WT.mc_n=MKT000125
I believe this is the position I was discussing. I've downloaded KSA and resume to my flash-stick, and pulled hard copies of my outstanding performance appraisal, most recent SF50, the 50 from my GS-14 ethics detail, and a couple of awards and thank you letters.
I've been debating whether to take an easy or difficult semester of classes in the fall. Thinking I might be taking on a new job, with career skills that make me extremely marketable in the long-run as an HR Director, I may go with a light load (including the course in Labor Law they just offered).
I'm not sure why I'm writing this. Perhaps I'm pretending I'm talking to someone because it helps me process. Something about saying it out loud makes it more real. Perhaps it's time I learned to rely more on an internal dialog without the need to "voice" it at all.
