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I called about that other job yesterday, saying no. He called me back after 6 (from work, not necessarily a good sign about their working conditions!) and we talked about it some more. I'm still on the fence. I'm a bit offended by being passed over here, but he wasn't put off by my wishy-washiness. He appreciated that I was going to err on the side of not applying for the sake of his name. He asked that I think about it some more, call him with any questions, and let him know where I'm leaning if I apply so he can know how to couch his recommendation.

He didn't mind that I'd only be there for 2 years. He did admit to the disadvantages of being in management, and although it's only a 14 it does have high visibility and demands based on that visibility. When I did my calculations about the cost of the promotion, I forgot to work in the subsequent step increases that come with a new job. I think I might apply, but really see what they offer. I could even be a bitch, signing bonus? Tuition reimbursement? They don't have maxiflex, but can we offer it?

Last night I talked to my law school friend. I told her she was looking nice, and she said she was just tired and her hair was messed up. I noted that often when her hair looks bad to her, I think it looks nice. She's so straight-laced...when she looks a little tossled it just looks better. We talked career goals, she could be richer but is taking law as a way OUT of the rat race. It's a little sad, sometimes I see a lot of like um...date potential in her, based on a lot of the goals and priorities we have in common. She's just too...nervous. I really don't like dating high-strung people. PLUS she's a friend and girls have that weird line that boys don't - that once you're friends there is no category crossing. Still, once in a while I get the urge to pick her up and bite her. Funny that.

School ends in about a month, exams shortly after that. So much to think about and decide. Oh, and I'm at work sick - but everyone who saw me thinks I look sick so if I bolt I still get that "wow how dedicated" boost to my reputation.

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I hate song lyric posts. That said, this is one. I love dance music, and many dance songs are just killed by the lyrics once you listen to the song 800 times and finally hear what they are saying. Thank god for german techno/indus. Well, I've posted them before but my favorite bad lyrics are of course that low self-esteem ballad

It's only when I lose myself in someone else
There's a thousand reasons Why I shouldn't spend my time with you
For every reason not to be here I can think of two
Keep me hanging on, Feeling nothing's wrong, Inside your heaven

That's just wrong on so many levels! Well, they just played that on Puredj.com (from shoutcast/winamp) and I finally found it doing a lyric search. Wouldn't you fucking know it - it's a Depeche Mode song! http://www.lyricsfreak.com/d/depeche-mode/39366.html I kinda stopped listening to them when they started dressing like goatee-grunge. Still, I always thought this song was a pathetic gay-male dance thing, but instead it's a low self-esteem teenage girl ballad. I suppose there is some crossover.

I love lyrics so bad, so bad it's just amazing. The horrible wrongness, the desperation, the clinging, the self-destruction...god I love that in dance music! I think that's why porn stars' dance songs always work for me.