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I don't get it. I'm in a really good mood, and for what reason? None. Yesterday blew chunks at work, I ran home, bought books, shopped, and then did chores and homework until about 11pm. No rest for my weary. I still have chores pending so my house doesn't look any more pathetic than necessary while I engage in alcoholism. Still, I was happy all this AM and now I'm plugging away at work and I'm quite pleased. I'm smiling, why? I'm saying hi to everyone, why? Nothing changed, nothing is resolved, I'm still plugging away from behind the curve.

I'm happy and I don't care why. I have no reason to be happy, but I'm happy to bask in it. Now, were I unhappy I'd be mired in a search to find out why I felt this way, the source that it might be cut off before it hurts again. No such attention is paid to the happy mood! There are times I take my bad moods, I listen to the sad music and get a sick pleasure from the suffering. How different is a good mood for no reason compared to a bad mood for no reason? Are they that different? If you can take pleasure from either, why not bask in it anyway?

Perhaps I got a special batch of bacteria in my DC water today and it affects neurotransmissions...