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I still have the email in my inbox telling me how to make different friends lists. More people I don't know have added me to their friends list, even though I haven't posted.

Nothing has changed, though I've come to realize I use this forum to feel some sort of connection, when it's a pretty false connection. I'm not talking to anyone when I write here, and what am I learning by reading other LJs?

eh who cares. I'm a fucking ray of sunshine today. There is something I'd like to whine about, but can't. I feel more alone today - but in a way I want to. I have to take a moment to revel in needing no one, or I would if I hadn't posted this which kind of counters that argument. How lame.

I got YIM, my id is the same as my email. I made an away icon that says "Downloading Porn." I set up the cam I've had for about 2 years and never used. The web cam makes me an idiot. I understand the urge to be naked on the cam, though my expression of the cam urge is slightly different. I keep making faces like a 7-year old. I can still make the fish face (though I didn't learn that one until college, thank you Karen) which always makes children happy.

I tried and failed to upload a picture of me using the cam to make a fish-face. I couldn't get it to crop the damn thing to 100x100 using MSPaint or PhotoEditor. I'm not tech-geeky enough.


GEEK wants:
I need to get this shit furniture out of my house
I want the computer to be able to output to the TV - I think it does this, but I don't know how at the moment.
I want the computer to become my stereo as well.
I need to catch up to that on-line music thing.
I need to get a portable music stick thingy once I get the music on the computer hooked up.
Fuck - I should get a way to play LPs to the computer, and use software to take out the snap crackle pop. I know it's doable.

I'm such a lazy fuck. My computer does all this stuff. I need to buy a laptop. I need to think before I talk or type. Honest is not always the best approach.

It's annoying to
Music is, or feels
SHort-term fix, giving in, giving in again, now, going past the craving and deep into indulgence too much and more feeling fucking swiming in it and pouring it in and on and on

In other news:

I got to conduct my first hearing last week. I’m embarrassed to say it was exciting! The first time I objected to a question "asked and answered" and was sustained I had a very tough time not grinning. I also had this whole room full of blue-collar witnesses who were tip-toeing around me like I was important or something. As expected, we kicked this guy’s ass, but the Judge didn’t let us make closing arguments. I think he was so sick of the loon that he didn’t want to give him another opening to babble in. Unfortunately, we don’t get a verdict for a month or two until after the hearing. Strange process, many controls built in. Sustained, biatch! By the end of the hearing, the Judge was making more objections than either agency representative. The thing I was proud of, because beating an unarmed opponent is not impressive, was that no questions were raised that I hadn't prepared our witnesses for.

Interesting point - I prep witnesses. I tell them only one thing - to tell the truth. I then barrage them with any and all questions that could possibly face under examination, so they are able to clarify what their testimony is before they face the stand. Law, the practice of law, is interesting and full of many interesting definitions of honesty.

The club night I had enjoyed in Knoxville had since shut down, oh well.

Sunday I went to see Nemo with a friend, but just to be REALLY SICK we had seafood before the movie. We asked the waiter if they served clown fish. Nemo was a good movie – I highly recommend it. Sad that the best written works on the screen are animated as of late. Ellen was a very fun blue-fish (one fish, two fish, red fish, Ellen) and her whale-speak sent me rolling around the isles. Do NOT watch this movie if you have a low child threshold, however. Cell phones have nothing on kids in a movie theatre. Me, I like kids the same way I do puppies...

Monday I was in Raleigh, NC, at about 9:30 AM picking up my luggage from the moving belt when my phone vibrated. It was the Judge, saying she had been out of town and wanted to catch me to tell me that she was postponing the hearing. She had ignored both the prior warnings we sent requesting that we be faxed documents due to the ongoing federal anthrax screening (all my mail comes in brown and crinkly from being radiated) and the blackout dates we listed as being unavailable later. Either the Judge screening process is weak, or they are very overworked. Or both.

The war of the home is lost

Memorandum
To: xxx and assistants
CC: Electronic copy sent to xxx
From: xxx
Date: 6/3/2003
Re: Huge Roach Infestation (both huge roaches and huge infestation)
( Roaches winning the war )