Learned something I might have
Nov. 3rd, 2014 11:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vicarzI'm so grateful that I've somehow garnered some really good friends. Noted most of my friends are exes and ex romantic interests, unfulfilled, mostly not unfulfilled but in all cases I'm incredibly lucky to have the company I keep.
I learned a half dozen lessons again tonight, most of which I sort of learned on the inside. One of the best things I ever learned, for me, was not making decisions right away. Learning to sit back, absorb, but not process. It takes a few drinks before my shields come down enough to listen, and I don't trust myself until I've had time to simmer.
If I learned anything it's that I have no idea how I feel - I'm better at analytics than determining my feelings - new, old, basic, ... well mostly basic.
Knowing I'm an idiot and working with that as an underlying assumption is an absolute gift.
I'm stupid, yet I need to listen to how I feel. I don't know how I feel, and yet I sort of do if I would just listen.
I know this sounds crazy and/or basic but it's quite a study for me. I'm stupid - work with it (doe-eyed Whoa).
Trains to Toronto are cheap but take longer than driving.
I learned a half dozen lessons again tonight, most of which I sort of learned on the inside. One of the best things I ever learned, for me, was not making decisions right away. Learning to sit back, absorb, but not process. It takes a few drinks before my shields come down enough to listen, and I don't trust myself until I've had time to simmer.
If I learned anything it's that I have no idea how I feel - I'm better at analytics than determining my feelings - new, old, basic, ... well mostly basic.
Knowing I'm an idiot and working with that as an underlying assumption is an absolute gift.
I'm stupid, yet I need to listen to how I feel. I don't know how I feel, and yet I sort of do if I would just listen.
I know this sounds crazy and/or basic but it's quite a study for me. I'm stupid - work with it (doe-eyed Whoa).
Trains to Toronto are cheap but take longer than driving.
