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Oct. 22nd, 2014 08:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vicarzTalked most of today to a retired Army man who may have done something wrong - he tried to be nice and real with an EEO Complainant, who in turn smelled blood and reported his attempt to help as harassment.
I feel 200% less ready to depose the psyc tomorrow. Terror has set in where confidence once...and nothing has changed. How can I possibly win?
Wait, how can I lose?
Just do my job.
And I hope this woman doesn't shoot me.
Today driving 3 hours from one city to another, I wondered if (like so many bad sci-fi premises) my entire life was a flash forward of what life would be like if I hadn't done x stupid fatal thing...and I thought what if this flashback is all that crazy bitch killing me, and as my life disappears she suddenly sees my entire life and understands the consequence for the first time.
But then that's me having delusions of grandiosity.
I feel 200% less ready to depose the psyc tomorrow. Terror has set in where confidence once...and nothing has changed. How can I possibly win?
Wait, how can I lose?
Just do my job.
And I hope this woman doesn't shoot me.
Today driving 3 hours from one city to another, I wondered if (like so many bad sci-fi premises) my entire life was a flash forward of what life would be like if I hadn't done x stupid fatal thing...and I thought what if this flashback is all that crazy bitch killing me, and as my life disappears she suddenly sees my entire life and understands the consequence for the first time.
But then that's me having delusions of grandiosity.
