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I don't feel like writing but here I be anyway.
Decided not to try and set too many records in the gym this week. Motivation is an issue, and I note on my DLs I haven't improved any other sets - my attempt for 5 only nets 5, 3 gets 3...so I'll try and get an extra rep on the lower sets before I hit 405. Bench is benchy, who cares. I kinda crashed emotionally after hitting 315 - every time I set a record I can't ignore that others are doing double my weight and of people I know nobody gives a rat's kiester about my gym accomplishments.
My motivations are essentially social acceptance, but I lack social skills and perspective.
Work is full of suck, but I have it so good compared to others I can't complain (except at work). It seems every day more work is taken from the other branches and heaped on us. If I just knuckle down and work without caring then I'd be fine - but I keep returning to formerly liking this job and seeing how small changes could make it not suck. The least bit of human consideration, or just manners, would make this a lot different.
Or maybe I'm just on my period.
Decided not to try and set too many records in the gym this week. Motivation is an issue, and I note on my DLs I haven't improved any other sets - my attempt for 5 only nets 5, 3 gets 3...so I'll try and get an extra rep on the lower sets before I hit 405. Bench is benchy, who cares. I kinda crashed emotionally after hitting 315 - every time I set a record I can't ignore that others are doing double my weight and of people I know nobody gives a rat's kiester about my gym accomplishments.
My motivations are essentially social acceptance, but I lack social skills and perspective.
Work is full of suck, but I have it so good compared to others I can't complain (except at work). It seems every day more work is taken from the other branches and heaped on us. If I just knuckle down and work without caring then I'd be fine - but I keep returning to formerly liking this job and seeing how small changes could make it not suck. The least bit of human consideration, or just manners, would make this a lot different.
Or maybe I'm just on my period.