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I just got a huge urge for horse smell. It's the season where I'm just tooling around when WHAM I get the intoxicating scent of honeysuckle or fresh cut grass and want to fall in a pile of it. Now horse, hay, leather, old wood, and yes even that horse poop would be a nice thing to smell right now.
Would smell better than this bullshit in the office.
In other startling news - I'm getting impatient. With everything. With everyone. I find I'm feeling less and less social. While I don't believe in the ext-int model of social interaction types, I've always been more outgoing than not. I wonder if I could be typed as a needy introvert.
Needy introvert.
I have a huge need for social affirmation, but I don't actually like people. Like a musician or a movie star, only I'm not getting paid and my behavior is dysfunctional. I'm far more confident with a gf, and far less needy as I have constant social support. So I find people more aggravating - they're the same, but without need they're just between me and the door. Obviously I'm exaggerating, or I'll also likely be single and friendless. Again.
Would smell better than this bullshit in the office.
In other startling news - I'm getting impatient. With everything. With everyone. I find I'm feeling less and less social. While I don't believe in the ext-int model of social interaction types, I've always been more outgoing than not. I wonder if I could be typed as a needy introvert.
Needy introvert.
I have a huge need for social affirmation, but I don't actually like people. Like a musician or a movie star, only I'm not getting paid and my behavior is dysfunctional. I'm far more confident with a gf, and far less needy as I have constant social support. So I find people more aggravating - they're the same, but without need they're just between me and the door. Obviously I'm exaggerating, or I'll also likely be single and friendless. Again.