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I always get lyrics wrong, but mine are cooler
Someone, somewhere - rules in hell! (Someone wake me up - Revco)
Is, this, your god... (Spin spin sugar - Sneaker Pimps)

Pics from a happy Sat night Just ignore the spooky arms...

I don't know how I did it - out until 3am, up at 8 LJing like my usual nerdy self, hit the gym that evening! This being able to moderate a buzz is a very good thing. Kirstin was right, I have sort of snapped out of a long funk - hope it lasts, holy shit hope it lasts. The murderous rage had subsided but I was still sad.

Holy shit workout. I think I made gym-friends with that front squat guy. The gym is being good and mixed to me. More weights are flatlinning, but my legs and core are strong. My bench got stuck, but then my weighted dips shot up. Huh. I'm going to push for more back work and really hone in on the core some more. My squats were ok at 245, did 8. I now have a new goal - 3 plates on deep squats. I think that is very achievable, and I don't see a lot of guys doing that. Sorry - I'm supposed to be just focused on me, but I'm not. I like doing more deeper than the guy beside me (re-arrange those words that for fun). My legs feel different, my ass looks and feels different, it's nice.

When I hit a good set, it's really hard not to bounce, shadow box, and/or dance. Just shoot me if you ever see me doing the arms-up circuit boy pelvic pendulum in the gym. Unless I join results.

On the other hand, I'm not going to go hard-core athletic. I might find a way to study MMA. Might not. I am probably not going to set competition goals nor compete, nor will I get nutty on nutrition. I can see myself getting into the gym hard-core, competing - but no. I want to maintain it as a diversion, a hobby I can sluff off on. It's cool, but I don't want it to dominate my life or sense of self. Sure it's fun to be strong, fun to be a self-declared self-appreciated hottie, but for fuck's sake - it's just a hobby. If you want to defeat people, shoot them - you can't even fight w/o going to jail anymore. If you want to be hot, well in my case shut up. If you want endorphins, shoot heroin (you can get poppies at the farmer's market now). The gym is nice, health is great, but it's just one hobby.

I'm happy. I'm smiling. I don't know why - I guess my emotions are all scabbed over. Yay scabs!

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The sort of people who get involved in MMA are, generally speaking, insufferable. The MBF (Macho Bullshit Factor) is off the scale. If you want to learn a martial art, pick one that is utterly impractical; those are the ones that attract the people who are really interested in improving themselves, rather than indulging macho fantasies or winning trophies. Anybody who uses words like "real-world," "modernized," or "combat-oriented" should be avoided. If you want to learn how to fight, join the Marines.

You do look really cute and really happy in those pictures. Especially spooky arms, I suspect you are doing the thriller dance and don't want to admit it!

You and I could do some badass partner acro. At least, if I can ever get my core and lower body strong enough to press up into a handstand.

I guess my emotions are all scabbed over. Yay scabs!

Yay for you! Just don't pick at 'em. ;)

Crash Test Dummies - An Old Scab

I sit each morning
Look at my empty notebook
The room is quiet
The air conditioning sounds like rain falling

Manic-depressive composer Robert Schumann
When he could not write
He'd get down on his knees and he would pray for help

It's not as bad as eating your own liver
But still, I'd like to think that
there are better methods

I try to tackle the page that lay before me
But then I drift off and think about
the concept of ben-wah balls
I rouse myself and I finish washing dishes
Make lists of errands
Make all my phone calls
And then I pray for help

But each time I try to make a fresh stab
I end up just picking at an old scab
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One of my favorite 10 songs ever. Applicable to both writing words, music, and life in general.

-s

I'm glad you're happy. I get excited when I can do any exercise bcause I'm usually worn out without doing anything. It makes sense that I don't want food because I can't exercise. I hope that changes because I don't want to lost anymore muscle. Can you exercise for me?

As they say in the hippest o' Kelowna circles: w00thiddity!

--k

yeah definitely there are things i wish i could do that my body cannot do...like we were talking, sometimes i just wanna do a cartwheel! :)

You don't think it would be kind of fun to do crazy shit with your fitness? like take it to a new level and learn gymnastics or something, or take ballet or modern or another kind of dance?

I know there is a local choreographer who also teaches at NOVA, and she has a troupe and everything. I think her name is Cathy Harding Gray or something.

Anyhow, hi! Oh yeah can you please tell me more about the boots you're wearing in the happy pics? They seem too nicely fitting or something to be military issue... i am seriously wanting some boots and the Ariat riding boots i just received are unfortunately not going to work out and i have to send them back.

whoaaaa can you tell someone hasn't had their adderall yet? lol