From my vantage, looking at what you've written since I started following your rants, vents, and tossings, I'd put it this way: When you work something out, or incorporate comments with consideration that question your views or positions, you grow and learn and change. When you purely vent, it is the equivalent of a distraction and endorphin burn. It would be disingenuous for you to say that you have not gained from the interaction, and at times, the outlet for various tensions and even anxieties.
It is not artificial in the sense that it IS a broadening of your world beyond the foreshortened perspective of your bed, your apartment, and the scenes you flit between.
You have gained a number of insights...but you are also a work in progress, much as most of us, and it is a shift marked by many transitions. So, since you're probably at the gym now, hen you get back, if you read this, stop for a moment and consider...what do you want to accomplish? A degree, a weight-range, a body-fat-ratio, notches in the bedpost are ephemeral measures and really mean very little other than a snapshot of where you are in your progression. Is it that you want to create something? Is it that you wish to promote change or make a social impact on a small, large, or global scale? Is your true anxiety one of confronting your lingering doubts that you can match up to that ambition you don't let out for anyone, including those with whom you have a relationship, see?
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When you work something out, or incorporate comments with consideration that question your views or positions, you grow and learn and change.
When you purely vent, it is the equivalent of a distraction and endorphin burn. It would be disingenuous for you to say that you have not gained from the interaction, and at times, the outlet for various tensions and even anxieties.
It is not artificial in the sense that it IS a broadening of your world beyond the foreshortened perspective of your bed, your apartment, and the scenes you flit between.
You have gained a number of insights...but you are also a work in progress, much as most of us, and it is a shift marked by many transitions. So, since you're probably at the gym now, hen you get back, if you read this, stop for a moment and consider...what do you want to accomplish? A degree, a weight-range, a body-fat-ratio, notches in the bedpost are ephemeral measures and really mean very little other than a snapshot of where you are in your progression. Is it that you want to create something? Is it that you wish to promote change or make a social impact on a small, large, or global scale? Is your true anxiety one of confronting your lingering doubts that you can match up to that ambition you don't let out for anyone, including those with whom you have a relationship, see?
Pain is a response. It is also caused by a lack.